I just got home from my going away party (the second of two) and that familiar feeling of "wow I will miss these people...why am I leaving just as I'm starting to get to know them and really have a good time?" was washing over me in the last 30 minutes. I do this too much. The constant moving can be draining, and I always have a night like this where I think maybe I should try the stable life. Find somewhere, be happy, stay there. But then I am soon reminded that the only reason I have been so happy the last few months is because I knew I was leaving. I don't start opening up until I see the 'light at the end of the tunnel". So I think back to how really bored and unhappy I was in Raleigh for the majority of 2006, and then look again at 2007, where I first knew I might move to London in January, and the five really cool months I have had are put back in perspective. Yes, ideally I would meet these friends and make these connections even if I wasn't leaving, but that's not the way I work. I'm just not there yet, who knows if I ever will be.
I leave for the airport in just over 12 hours - gotta get to bed! Way too much to do before leaving - all the last minute stuff I couldn't do until now, like wash the last of the laundry, pack up shampoo and makeup, fold up sheets and completely empty my room....That's the aggravating part of moving/flying - you can get 95% done, but that last 5% will kill you, and can't be done in advance!
I did sell my bed already, so I've spent one night on the couch and one on a makeshift bed in my room. I'm in the nostalgic, I'm going to miss people mood already, so I will end this post to make way for the excited OH MY GOSH I'M IN LONDON posts to follow :)
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I think I was still in shock and disbelief when we were boarding the plane... and then I remember getting here to our house, me and Zach and the cat, a bed, and our suitcases, and an otherwise completely empty house, and this feeling of what have we done??? settled on me like a weight.
But then we got up the next day, and Zach went to work, and I started getting us set up here, and then I started my French classes, and suddenly now we've been here over 3 months and I LOVE it.
Looking forward to hearing from you, once you reach the other side. =)
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