Ain't she sweet? I raise only the smartest of kitties. Reading until she falls asleep, just like her momma. :)Sadly, my point in showcasing the adorable fluffy feline today is to highlight one of the things I like least about myself - I emotionally detach at random. It wouldn't be so bad if I was in control; if I knew I needed to guard myself from caring about something unhealthy for me, for example, so I stopped myself from getting in too deep. But I don't get to pick where, what, who, or how I will just one day find my emotions have gone completely cold. I love my Xai-Xai, she's curled up with me now, she's happy, I'm happy. But I won't miss her when I go to London, and I have no problem at all leaving her behind. I let her outside no matter where I'm living, and if she stays out all night, I don't even worry. I know she'll come back, and if not, eh, at least she was happy while alive and had the freedom to do what she wants. Apparently sometime after I left her and Anna behind to go to South Africa, I unknowingly shut off anything other than a perfunctory motherly care.
I'm sure I'm coming across horribly insensitive, but that was my intent. :) This happens with people too, and it's one reason I am hesitant to ever get married or have kids - too risky!
So I guess the question is, do we all have this "switch"? Are some people's just more dramatic? Is it possible to control? If so, where do I sign up to learn how?
2 comments:
that could totally be a stuffonmycat.com picture! lol
Honestly, this may be one of the healthier ways to look at pet ownership-- you enjoy her company when she's around, but don't obsess about your cat as if she were your own child. I can sometimes worry so much about my cats, and I realize it's irrational and silly (you shoulda seen me when we were thinking of getting Charlie, and then during the first months while Sierra was getting used to her-- I was such a wreck worrying about my poor baby!). Being a bit more detached allows you to be more objective, and if you do lose your cat you know you'll be ok with that and move on.
As for kids and a hubby... The way people describe the feelings they have for their children once they're born, I think you'll find it nearly impossible to detach from them once you have them. I mean, at that point you'd be fighting years of evolution and genetics. ; )
Thanks :) I think I'm having one of those think-too-deeply about everything weeks...I did realize later that I've never detached from family and long-time friends, so that and your point about evolution and genetics give me a little hope.
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